Last night in our Ladies Bible study with Beth Moore, she was in the book of Esther chapter 4. Queen Esther was faced with her fear of death but knowing God was with her, she said in last part of verse 16 “if I perish, I perish!”
Mine….the fear of death, not mine so much but how it would affect my family. This fear was brought to reality in 1995 when I was diagnosed with breast cancer at age 35; being a single parent of a 4 year old and all the doctors telling me I needed a Will was extremely hard to listen to. One night while lying in my bed sobbing so much I thought I would just die right there an over whelming since of peace and calmness fell over me, in my thoughts I heard God himself tell me everything would be fine. WOW I cannot explain how this made me feel to know that God was there and was taking care of me. Extremely blessed that’s it!! After that I never cried over the cancer again and after the 8 hour surgery I was told the cancer was in such an early stage and none of the 14 lymph nodes were involved that I would not need chemo or radiation. Sometimes feelings of guilt creep up in me because so many others have been diagnosed with Breast Cancer and not had the same outcome. Many have lost their lives, but we have to remember that God is great and EVERYTHING is in His plan and nothing happens by accident. We cannot see the big picture but God has a reason for everything and to God be the glory!! Amen
Camden, SC
