June 3, 2014 mammogram, I know this date it was my birthday. Letter comes "All good" July 29,2014 I find a lump on my left breast, while on vacation. Saw my primary care on August 4,2014, he said felt it was nothing but to be on the safe side sent me to see a surgeon, from there the dates become a blur. Saw a surgeon and PA both felt the lump was nothing but wanted an ultrasound "just to be on the safe side" My surgeon deicided to remove the too small to determine lump form my left breast with open biopsy removal on September 12,2014. On September 22, 2014 I hear the word "your area is cancerous" I heard nothing for five minutes after that. Everybody said they felt it was nothing, what happened to it was nothing?
I have struggled not with why me God, but what is my reason God? My reason, self breast exams saved me and a team of physicians that did not blow this off! Leaning on the side of caution, I was a stage I grade I with diagnosis. I still face complete mastectomy (my choice) and reconstruction, depending on results of lymph nodes chemo and radiation, but I know I am not in this alone. My friend outpouring has been phenominal. I could never have felt more blessed. My husband is so strong, comfortable in his man hood and rocking the pink for me, never leaving my side. My daughter (14) is refusing to acknowledge or talk about it, says she knows I will be fine. I worry all the time every little ache and pain is cancer everywhere! will I spend the rest of my life wondering when it will come back and where it will be?
I have joined a club no woman wants to be a part of, but so many members. Strong and fighting!
Beckley, WV
