Four years ago today - I FOUND A LUMP............... Fortunately I was pro-active, which is why I am here today!! A 5cm aggressive grade 3 out of 3 tumour that had already travelled to my lymph system & possibly into my blood. The vertical climb for survival had begun. F**K OFF GRIM REAPER - I'M 46 & GOING NO WHERE!!!
It literally has been the fight of my life (the fight FOR my life) but when you're really not offered a choice - I attacked it with all guns blazing!!!
It's felt borderline impossible many a time & you try to hide how immensely difficult & terrifying the journey is from your loved ones as much as humanly possible for fear of frightening them - but I've always been very competitive - so this 'C' wasn't going to beat me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not in remission - I haven't been given the 'all clear'. I'm on an oestrogen blocker for 7 years to starve out any cancer cells that may still be lurking around. I have had frequent check-ups which drive me bonkers - but how can I complain when I am still here & able to share life with my amazing friends & soak up all the love from the most loving family anyone one could wish for!
I am often exhausted but the vertical climb is slowly becoming a more gentle mountain path but there is always someone’s hand reaching out to give me support along the way.
This coming year is going to be more of a leisurely stroll on a pretty hillside path & I won't have to hold on so tight to your hand - but I will still be very grateful that I still have you by my side - you friends & family on this side & all my beautiful friends & family who have passed over but I know are still there.
I love my husband David, my children, family & friends with every beat of my now 50 year old heart!!!!! Thank you all for your constant love
& support XXX
Manchester, United Kingdom