Well, The doctor said i have a lump. Nothing could have prepared me for this, although I have said it 100 times to myself. I am booked in for a mammogram/ultrasound on Wednesday. So i am sure i am going to have a good result. The lump has been there for years and has previously been looked at and said it was ok. I actually had pain in my other breast . For years I have been diligent in feeling my breasts, checking for any differences. As far as I was concerned, nothing had changed.
I have best friends who have survived so I know there is hope. I just need to write this. I know i am not alone but it is very surreal. Although I have not been diagnosed with anything at this stage, i feel by writing, maybe I may help someone who reads this.
So 3 more days to wait.
Today I went to tell my mum. That was an effort. My eldest brother died last year from cancer so to have another child, who may become sick, would be very hard. I decided I wouldn:t tell her if she was alone. My sister was there and I told them. They were very supportive and they were glad I had booked in for a mammogram.
I feel like I am being a big drama queen, so Hopefully all these thoughts will be for nothing.
Again, I have no diagnosis however.........
melbourne, Australia