Dear Cancer,
You thought you had me, didn’t you? Three years ago today I was told you had to appeared in MY body, as if it was yours to invade – unannounced, uninvited, unwelcomed. I was busy with a business, kids, a new grandson, in great heath, scheduled to compete several triathlons, races and activities that summer – including spending time with my kids and new grandson and growing my business. You appeared as a painful lump in my breast that was a constant irritant (you were really tricky because only 5% of breast cancers actually hurt). I wasn't too concerned – searches online resulted in statements like “most breast cancers don’t cause pain” - so you just became an ‘irritating, painful lump’.
You even thought you had me beat by showing up with your ‘A’ game – stage 3 triple negative.
You challenged me physically, financially, spiritually, and emotionally. You caused numerous infections in my body that in themselves could have killed me. You took parts of my body that make me a woman, took my dignity and made me question the worthiness of MY survival. There are so many relatives and friends you have affected, and while I was winning the battle against you, within a year, my Aunt, my Father, and a good friend lost their battle to you. You are cruel in so many ways, and relentless in your efforts to survive and grow. You caused worry, fear and sadness to my family and friends. You had my children exremely scared, confused and feeling helpless. You are MEAN, and I hate you!
But, guess what??? I Won! Today I won. I beat you. I’m a better person because of you, a stronger more giving, more accepting person. I’ve made good friends, developed closer relationships and have grown spiritually. I’m back doing the things I love to do. Even though I don’t look the same…I’m better. A lot better. I tell everyone I meet- you are not invincible. I will do anything for anyone to help beat you.
-Christina ( Mommy, Nana).
Various, ND