I was diagnosed with breast cancer in November 2013. I had a double mastectomy in January. My reconstructive surgery was completed just a few short months ago. My scars are still visible, angry and healing. Many people in my life view me as a new found hero. That’s a big title! The truth is, I’m just a girl who has been reinvented. A new reflection in the mirror. Like a teenager going through puberty all over again discovering these new body parts she didn’t ask for! Who is she? Is she beautiful? Do I know her? She can’t wear the same bras as before. She can’t wear the same clothes. They look and fit differently now. Despite what only the human eyes can see, the superficial...deep inside my heart is humbled and grateful. I keep believing God spared my life not to just live. But to live better than before! To live more beautifully than before. I will navigate my strength into my line of faith that surpasses all my fears and lack of understanding. That’s what I can do! That’s what she can do! That’s what we can do! To love everyone, moreover, to love ourselves, from the inside, what truly matters most. And to live every day as a precious gift. Yes, breast cancer will change your life forever. But if we allow it...It could just be the most beautiful thing that ever happens to us!

Christina Kutchman
Eldersburg, MD