It all started in April, 2014. I was alarmed with the swelling of my left arm. I went to the emergency section of the hospital to have it examined. I had series of blood tests and ultrasound as the doctor ruled out DVT. Good to hear that all tests were normal. Until I had another set of tests, this time mammogram, ultrasound and all. June 4, 2014, the doctor told me it was cancer. How can I live a bit longer than five years ? I was not totally shocked because I knew it but no idea what stage it was. Until he said it was metastatic (stage 4) breast cancer. The doctor added that chemotherapy should start at once and then surgery after, but how long would that be? The first time I had my chemo was the worst part of my life. But being weak only occurred for 24 hours. I just thought I was gonna die.
Maybe God has a purpose for my life but what shatters me is the thought of how my two kids will survive without me? When my husband died 11 years ago my only daughter now 28 condition aggravated that lead to retardation and cannot live independently and my 16 yr old son who is still in middle school. I said to myself I have to ignore negative feelings I felt that time. I remained optimistic and that I realized how precious life is and have to be grateful despite my new ordeal. For I have to be strong for my children, like any human being fear has enveloped in me but the good Lord has been my peace and comfort . I know for sure He will sustain whatever is lost in me.
The outpouring prayers and support from family and friends has been my shield to this fight. God’s love will always be my strength and hope and I know il win this. For my children, you 3 will be my light and the reason why I am a strong woman until today.
Los Angeles, CA
