At three months pregnant I notices a small, pea sized lump. During my next doctors visit I mentioned it. After giving me an echo to see how the baby was doing, he checked my lump with the same echo and confirmed it was nothing. "If it is still there after breastfeading we will continue". As it was so high up my chest, nearly out of the breast tisue area, and it did not grow much, I did not think much of it. When, 10 months later I dicided to stop breastfeading my second, trouble started. The lump started growing (up to 3cm) and the rollarcoaster ride took off.
My first chemo was in the beginning of April ´13, my youngest was 6 months old. After 12 rounds of chemo the tumor was reduced to 1/3 of the size. I have had a lumpectomy and all my lympf nodes removed from my left armpit.
Radiation was to follow, 25 rounds. But just before my oncologist decided to do a PET scan, just to get the "all clear". To our suprise it turned out I had 2 small tumors in my hip area. What a blow that was. The idea of having metastatic Breast Cancer never even crossed my mind. All I could think about where my two little girls of one and three years old.
But my oncologist gave me hope. Together with the radiation experts the decided to try and remove the tumors with a new technique. I received the 25 sessions on my chest and another 5 on each tumor on my hip.
Even with metasatic breast cancer, my oncologist gave me hope. She has patients like me that have been living like this for over 10 years (and still are).
As I am waiting, hoping and praying to get the "all clear", I have started very carefully to look towards the future again. A future I thought I would not have for a while. But as time passes I feel stronger &healthier. I dont take anything for granted. Every moment with my girls is a celebration of life.
Canary islands, Spain
